May 12, 2004
the heirophant
5/12/04
In the Tarot, the Death card actually doesn't symbolize death, it symbolizes "change." I suppose this is what you have to realize when you have the kind of day Tessa and I had, when it seemed like a little piece of our career suffered a little death. In French, "little death" - or "le petit mort" - means orgasm, so there's all kinds of ways to look at this positively.
So it looks like we'll be taking quite a detour en route to our artistic and financial fruition. In many ways, this is the best thing that could have happened, but still, there is that slice of your abdomen that feels intense rejection. My buddy Dan just got fired from a job he loathed, and heavens know I got canned from That Internet Job That Was Making Me Claw My Face Off, but it doesn't stop you from feeling like you failed.
When God closes a door, he may open a window, but my nuts are getting hurt every time I climb through the window.
At the end of my law schooling, I took a train to Ottawa where I had an interview for a ckerkship with a Federal Court judge. We got along great, joking, talking about our mutual home of Nova Scotia, going over my marks and interests. Afterwards, I caught up with a pal who was his current clerk and told him how well it went, even sharing a joke the judge told. "What" he says - "he told a joke?" Apparently there had been a pool among clerks for years because the guy never joked or laughed. I never got the job. You never know what someone is looking for.
So...I was driving across the Mass. / New York border on the weekend. Pretty sweet countryside. Carrot and bean planting time, isn't it?
In the wake of so much shitty, shallow TV, allow me to get angry for you. Does this mean Fox is not further developing the naked project that featured your work or are you still on a hold of some sort? Maybe your plays should offer the audience the weekly chance to vote off a cast member; you'd have to be on your creative toes to plausibly knock off their choice.
Don't like mom? Fine, she runs away with another man/woman/circus next week.
Don't like dad? Witness Protection Program
Don't like kid? Send him to military school.
Don't like writer? Fine, suck on my eraser till you like the taste of rubber.
That show would probably end up a lot like SOAP, which wouldn't necessarily be a bad thing!
BTW, Ian - I'm thinking about buying a Prius but I'm used to driving a larger, more luxury oriented car (an Audi A6.) Anything pet peeves or annoyances emerging in yours?
And on a completely different note, I'm happy to say that after 60 days the Concerta seems to be working very well with no significant side effects. How's your ADD these days?
Well, at least you're not working for Rupert Murdoch and rubbing shoulders with Fox News.
Dude.
The fact that y'all were there at all says much more than that they didn't have sense enough to choose your ideas.
For one thing, y'all are too smart for the vast wasteland. Would the Coen brothers have fared any better?
Note also that 95% of the best shows that make it to the air wither and die from bad ratings in a season or two.
You'll have your success, on your own terms, and it'll be far sweeter than this could ever have been. Keep on fighting the good fight. We need you.
Well, Fox actually took a big gamble with this project, and it was a huge artistic success, and it did end up directly helping some of the other people in the evening - I'm over the moon that they'll be able to get their plays going with the network. Rupert Murdoch & Co. are to be commended for bringing live theater to fruition, they really are.
I'm just going to have to take a little more of a roundabout route. Plenty of other people saw the evening. I have no regrets, and the people we have met over the last few months are people I plan on dragging with me throughout the rest of my adulthood. The whole thing was pretty fabulous. My only worry is paying our rent, y'know?
Alan- actually, we can't plant until Memorial Day because of the possibility of freeze. Plus, the ground - especially a few inches down - just isn't warm enough for much yet.
Greg- The Prius is fabulous. We really have no complaints. In many ways, it's the perfect car (unless you plan on hauling lumber).